Hypnotic, you're leaving me breathless.

Hey there, my rotting blogger account. You are such a loser compared to my Livejournal account. Hahaha.

But I've thought of something that can make you useful: Since my lovey have full access to my Livejournal, and I don't want to argue with him again, nor cause him pain, nor be close to losing him, BUT GOD I'M STILL NOT OVER WITH SATURDAY, I decided that when I need to rant about him, my ultimate crush (eeewww, hottie?) I'll dump it here in blogger. :>

So can you keep a secret? Can you, can you? You should.

*This should be added to this entry, but since it concerns... Okay, let's call him reserved (haha!) Ahh do I need to explain?

I am so frustrated when dismissal came and we haven't had the chance to talk... Or it's better to say that I wasn't able to approach him again. All I did was burst out my panicking to Jonel. Stupid.

The glances and stares and all have dramatically lessen today compared to last week. Aw. Haha. Yes, it did lessen but it's still there. I really need to talk to hiiiiim. :(

It's been a week since that happened and I'm still far from getting over it. Really, I am FAR from getting over it. I won't have peace of mind unless I talk to him, unless I find out why that friggin' Saturday happened. I thought of talking to him through text, which was kinda impossible and stupid, because a.) I have no phone, I'm still grounded and b.) I won't be able to see his reaction, who knows if he's playing me?

I've been listening to Paramore's Crush crush crush and I Caught Myself and it's not helping. No, it's not helping. Hahaha. Crappy shit.

I am off for a week now, and it's because of him. It's hard to focus whenever discussions are going on. Man, I really can't focus. I guess crushes really drives someone nuts, huh?

I've been crushing on him since we were second year. We were really close, actually inseperable. We talk about a lot of stuff everyday. Dinosaurs, the Bible, anything under the sun. We were seatmates for one quarter but after that he never left me. He always sits beside me. He's my optimist. He always brings me up when I'm down, he brightens up my day. We really had a great friendship and mine... well, developed.

We almost happened twice. One during our sophomore year, but it never happened cause I was stupid, and the other girl was aggressive enough to confess first, blahblahblah. To cut the story short she got him. So we remained friends, I let my crush feelings cease first because the girl's my friend, too. They broke up during summer before our junior year. So I grabbed the chance when our junior year started, LOL.

We almost happened that time, too. We talk that way already, we both know we're going there, he gave me Ferrero for my birthday, blahblahblah. But I can't wait forever, and my lovey came, and so we never happened, again.

And then Saturday happened but I already am committed.

I just want to know why it happened, and I want to prove to myself that I was right all along, that he liked me, too, but never spilled. I just want to hear those words straight from his mouth.

And when I do, my world will be in total chaos.

If you want to have an idea about the Saturday I'm talking about, visit my livejournal account. Maybe you'll find something there.

Who'll read this, anyway?

September is for Ecology. :)

before anything else: i've read that livejournal will be undergoing a maintenance tomorrow at 11 am that's why i'm posting my blog entry here for backup, if in case livejournal will not be available by the time Sir Chris (or someone else) checks the entry, he will still be able to see it.. here. YEAH. yan ang gamit ng blogspot, BACKUP. haha. :)

if it's not obvious, this entry is written for a contest. enjoy. :D

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It's the first day of October today and it's my mom's birthday! :) happy birthday, Mom. ♥ Since September is already done and you all know (well, if you're reading my entries from time to time, you know this. :P) that i've been so busy this month, i want to share with you a rundown of the whole month of September, the Ecology month of my school, CDBS. We'll exclude the activities I encountered which weren't under the umbrella of Ecology month first, okay? I'll just post another entry about them, or perhaps I wont, because I've updated you about it already as the days of September come and go. :)

Okay, let me see.. The Ecology month was launched one Monday morning assembly of the highschools at the Gym. They presented an overview of what's coming for the month by having a CNN-like news report. It was done by the 4th year students, particularly ate Bea and Djyrah, kuya Cholo, and others whose names I forgot. They prepared a recorded interview with the teachers that explained the upcoming contests for every level. Here's a rundown of it:

CONTESTS, are you up for them?
1st year: all i can remember is it is about launching a rocket, the ones which are made of plastic bottles and such. i don't know the exact objectives and flow of the contest but yeah, there were afternoons where in you would just hear people screaming and shouting while you see an improvised rocket fly up the sky and fall back down.
2nd year: I am not updated about the sophomore's contest but then one thing's for sure--it involves a debate. :)
3rd year: Ours is called Chemistry Challenge. We had eliminations per class, the group who wins will be the representative. I experienced the elimination round and it was fun. Weighing, transferring liquid, determining which one has sodium in it, and grouping elements. My group was so close to winning, too bad we messed up in grouping the given elements. Roniel's group was our representative and I heard that Mornese won the challenge.. well, congratulations!
4th year: Although I wasn't updated with the senior's contest, I know that it is a tamiya racing for boys, and spool racing for girls. :)

Fun, right? What made the launch more appealing was the graphics/presentation they used, I don't know who made it, but wow, they're reaally good. Another charm of the launch was the Anchor reporters. They delivered what they had to say with confidence and emotions enough to make us excited with the month.

There were a whole lot more of contests open for highschool students. Poster making, mandala making, mixed media, painting, photography, essay writing, blog writing, and diorama. I joined the mandala making and blog writing. I can't say much about how the events went because I was having my class retreat the day the contests were held. I made my entry for mandala just this morning, the moment I got back to school from the retreat. I saw the diorama, painting, and poster entries and they were amusing. Every entry has its own appeal to the observer and they all held one main theme: GO GREEN NOW.

Another highlight of the Ecology month was the bulletin board contest. Each classroom was asked to do a makeover to their bulletin boards and transform them into a bulletin board carrying the theme go green now using Eco-friendly, recyclable stuff. We were also asked to post our promises to mother nature there, preferably by making a tree. I think the winner wasn't announced yet. See, I'm really not that updated (but updated enough to update you. haha. gulo ko.)with what's happening inside the campus because of being continuously in-demand. HAHA. i've been out doing my own thing almost every day because of certain competitions.

My favorite event for the Ecology month was the YES! Camp. grabe. this was super fun despite of the bad weather during the camp proper. We had a talk, some games, socializing, and a lot more. It was fun for me mainly because I got the chance to bond with my friends and schoolmates the eco-friendly way. naks. I haven't had a lot of sleep that time because I had a girltalk session with my friends, not that it matters. XD We went home earlier than we're meant to be though, because of the weather. Because of Ondoy. But all in all, it was a great experience. ♥

As I've said earlier, September has ended. But that doesn't mean that Ecology month ends, too. I believe that what our school's observing the past month should be obtain for the rest of the year to help Mother Earth and to let the students enjoy and appreciate nature. That doesn't necessarily mean that we should still have those contests, what I mean is application. Do I make sense? I hope I do. With the help of YES! Organization and every student's cooperation, September's theme Go Green Now will continue to reign.

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So yeah, who read the whole thing? sorry if it's long. ♥

alyssa. (and then i thought of placing my signature here LOL.)

oh hot damn

i'm SO crushing on TAYLOR LAUTNER. :">

saw New Moon's trailer.. saw pictures.. one thing proven:: HE IS HOT.

ghaad. :))

i've been crushing on him since his Sharkboy and Lavagirl, Cheaper by the Dozen 2 days, and now he's hotter, and i'm crushing on him even more. LOL.

ooh he's my kind of Jacob.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJ9afRgToxE --new moon trailer.

now i run with the werewolves. >:)

(i'm supposed to put a picture of him in this entry but i can't find and save a nice one since everything's on Flickr (blahblahblah) and dad might see what i'm doing and then he gets suspicious and then he blabs...)

oh stop blabbing, Alyssa. xD

Taylor Lautner is HOT. (is he, Alyssa? is he reaaaally?)

because i'm nocturnal and i think too much

(livejournal's acting weird again, so i'll post my entry here)

listening to:: TV noise (are you the next big star?)

okay, i'm reaally irritated with what i'm hearing now.. it's not music, it's noise. well, no offense. i just don't like it. who would like it if it's distracting?

i planned to write this blog without seeking reference on my notebook but that would be impossible because it's too noisy here. i can't organize my thoughts well whenever it's noisy..

sooo... it's time to consult my notebook! :)

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i'm so stubborn. i should be starting to change my ways and sleep (and of course, wake up) on time but i'm doing the opposite of it -- i'm sleeping past my bedtime (waaaay past).. i wake up quite early, though. cause they've been waking me up before lunchtime for quite sometime now.. i'm trying so hard not to fall back to sleep again after they wake me up but i always do (but now i didn't. hooray.) my naptime session lasts for two hours.. it's not good because i wake up between 9:3o and 12:oonn. i'll prolly last for two hours and then after that, nap time session. haha. it's not good because i'll end up being awake at night. darn it, did you know that i even wrote the draft of this last last night, at 1:45 am. see? i typically last until past two every night.is it healthy to be awake this late? NO. is it normal to be awake this late? NO. darn. i don't know how to fix this.. this delayed sleep phase syndrome. it's like my schedule's been adjusted. and i have to set it to the normal one soon.

maybe.. im thinking it too much.. i worry about sleep too much. that's why i can't find peace and relaxation.. but how can i relax if my mind's unstoppable at night? as you all know, or some of you may know, my mind's at it's most active and creative state at night. maybe because at night, there's silence.. and when there is silence, thoughts come in. so yeah, i can't stop thinking.. i mean.. how could you "close your eyes and don't think. then you'll fall asleep."? mama makes it sound so easy.. i've tried a lot of things to make sleeping easy for me.. but nothing worked. why could sleeping be oh so hard for me? ooh i know why, because i'm a nocturnal and i think too much.

i'm hoping for improvements on this matter when school starts.

oh speaking of school, our classes will start on June 15 instead of June 8. they moved it. well, yeyy! :P

x's and o's,
the pen scribbler. :)

see you at livejournal!

hello. i just want you to know, (as if someone actually cares about this) that my sensible posts are posted on my livejournal account which is http://myscribblingpen.livejournal.com . okay? got it? got it?

this account is made for backup purposes only.. and for less sensible posts. haha. xD as much as possible i want my official blogsite (which is on livejournal) to be formal or whatever but at the same time, i have my moments, there are times when i want to post gibberish stuffs. and this is the right place to post them. haha. or in my multiply account. :)

i'm keeping three blogsites now (plus my notebook, which is the most updated of all) and it's hard to keep up with all of it. that's why some are left behind.

why am i talking about this anyway? as if someone cares.. :P

gotta cut this short, Boys Over Flowers will be airing in a couple of minutes now.

see ya.

survey number one.

okay, since i'm bored, i'll just answer some surveys.. :)

Four Questions You'd Like Answered
1. Did you really love me?
2. Have you ever liked me before?
3. Who will I be in the future?
4. Am i on the right track?

Four Stuffed Animals In Your Room
1. a pink pig. i got it last last December as an exchange gift on our Christmas party at school.
2. a teddy bear. a big one from a Korean client of my mom.
3. -
4. -

Four Terrible Ways To Break Up With Someone
1. sending a text message.
2. disappearing without anything.
3. breaking up without explaining.
4. not telling it personally.

Four Foods You Eat Most Often
1. pot roast.
2. sunny side up.
3. rice.
4. bread.

Four Languages You'd Like To Be Fluent In
1. Japanese
2. Spanish
3. English
4.

Four Awesome Movie Villains
1. i
2. can't
3. think
4. xD

Four People You Last Watched A Comedy With
1. mom
2. dad
3. Kyle
4. Calvin

Four CDs You Haven't Listened To In A Long Time
1. Christian Bautista's Album
2. HSM Soundtrack
3. i don't listen to CDs
4. . . .

Four TV Shows You'd Love To Be A Part Of
1. Wizards of Waverly Place
2. Any show on The Food Network
3. Suite Life of Zach and Cody
4. Cory in the House

Four Sites You Go To When You're Bored
1. Twitter
2. Plurk
3. YouTube
4. Multiply

Four Careers That Would Suck
1. for me..? Being Mike Rowe on Dirty Jobs with Mike Rowe. no offense.
2.
3.
4.

Four Birds You Usually See In Your Area
1. those brown typical birds in our country. :))
2.
3.
4.

Four Things You Plan To Do In The Next Week
1. go to school
2. sleep early
3. catch up with school friends
4.

Four Colours In The Room
1. pink
2. brown
3. black
4. white

Four Words You Find Funny
1. i
2. can't
3. think
4. of anything. i'm doing this in a hurry, dunno why. xD

Four Songs You Love To Sing Aloud
1. Broken strings
2. Di Na Mababawi
3. The Climb
4. White Horse

[ Love from ServinSurveys dot multiply dot com ]

PS. sorry for posting nonsense here. you could check out my sensible entries at http://myscribblingpen.livejournal.com

copied from livejournal.

sooooo, since livejournal is acting weird, i'll post my blog here for backup. see, blogspot? you have a purpose. BACKUP! yeaaah. XD

okay. so instead of being sooooo irritated with the speed of my internet connection, i'll just write. oooohhhh. this tastes goooood. haha. just so you know, i'm currently eating dinner in front of the computer. anyways, i'll eat first, wait. :)

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okay, i'm done. anyways..last night i searched for potential blog entries on my orange notebook/diary. that notebook was given to me by one of my bestfriends, Jammie. I wrote on that notebook last August and the whole semestral break of my sophomore year. I found one entry that is safe to share. should i encode it now? what do you think? eh? eh? haha. fine. i'll share it.

(copied from my orange notebook, with a few edits, and additional ek-eks.)

Random Facts About Me :) [at last, ginanahan na rin akong gawin to. xD] oct. 25 2oo8

--every morning, before going to school, i spend most of the time looking at the mirror in my room, on the shelf, and the one on our sala. haha! talk about being vain.
--as much as possible, i don't use any other computer when Y!M-ing (lol term) but our computer. i want my conversations documented in the archives for the nostalgia. :D
--i have a birthmark on my left arm/shoulder whatever. i used to hide it from people before.. but now, hindi na. :)
--i love it when my crushes wear reading glasses and they look good on it. :)
--i got affected on FPJ, Rico Yan, and PJPII's death. iniyakan ko si PJPII, hindi ako nakatulog kay Rico Yan, at napanaginipan ko si FPJ. xD LOL. weird, eh?
--pikon ako kay mommy, Calvin, Carlo (our 5/6 year-old neighbor), Ico and Ejnar (my fellow classmates) xD
--whenever i cry because of a movie, i use fake yawns as an excuse. haha!
--i feel weird when it rains, i don't know, i feel weird. xD and i remember my ex whenever it rains..
--i love to collect ballpens. dooper. :))
--my smallest toe, left foot, owns an extra small nail. LOL. :))
--i hate it when i lose something. as in di ako mapakali. ugh.
--i send FAKE GMs to.. haha! yeah. my angel. :)
--i'm afraid of cockroaches. damn, they freak me out. especially when they're flying. ghaad.
--softy ako. super softy. i easily give in. i'm weak. yeah, whatever.
--i am freaking afraid of windows, i hate windows, i dont even wanna take a peek through it at night. gosh.
--i'm nocturnal. i can't sleep easily at night. i'm thinking it too much. waa.

more to come! pag ginanahang dagdagan.

so i guess you know me a little bit more now, yeah? yeah? good. :)

goodbye.

x's and o's,
the pen scribbler.

senseless. :))

okay, livejournal won over blogspot. but that doesn't mean that i won't use my blogspot account in writing my thoughts. i would use it privately. yeah. :)

i'm thinking.. i'm thinking.. okay, i can't think. it's too noisy here. i can't write well when it's noisy.

it's uber noisy here. because mom and dad are teasing each other.

fun. :)

well, gotta go.

xiao.